Coming home

My husband is finally coming home this weekend. It’s been almost 6 weeks since I’ve seen him. Besides when he went to training for four weeks and met the whore this is the longest we’ve been apart. I’ve been too busy getting our house ready to sell that I haven’t really had a chance to think of his affair. This is a good thing. We are in a good place in our marriage right now. But damnit those stupid triggers are coming to the surface today. When we made plans for him to come home I didn’t quite look at the dates. The whore came here 2 years ago tomorrow. They didn’t have sex because she was having female issues ( whatever that is for her) but he got a good dick sucking and she got showered with my husband’s affection, our money and got his undivided attention for the evening and all the next day. Those stupid dates triggers!
History is repeating itself… My Aunt Flo decided to be over a week late, probably due to my stress over the house and will be here for the next couple days. All I can think about is her being excited to see him and being on her period ( probably her female issues idk) and not able to have sex with my husband. I’m now excited to see my husband and I hate it for him, but damnit if Aunt Flo is still here he’s gonna have to suck it up because I plan on having sex come hell or high water with my husband! I will not let his affair dictate my mind and I won’t let history repeat itself! I plan on enjoying my husband during the next three days and not think of those stupid dates. I cannot wait to wrap my arms around him and feel his arms around me. Being back in my safe place again. 2 years ago I would’ve never imagined calling him my safe place ever again. But in two years we’ve gotten so far and she is a distant memory. Just one year ago I was still in so much pain I never thought it was possible to be where I am now. I’m in a better frame of mind and I know with all my heart he will never betray me again.
Here’s to a wonderful weekend with the love of my life! I am so excited this weekend has finally gotten here!

4 thoughts on “Coming home

  1. FC, it is so good to read you are at a happy place in your life now. I hope, pray that he keeps being your safe place. This is a difficult journey and you’ve come so far along. I hope this weekend goes exactly as you want it to be

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    • Thank you! We’ve gotten so far. I thought it would’ve been hard having him leave to go work away so far from home while I stayed to get the house ready. I thought I was going to have a lot of triggers because of him being gone, but I just had to trust that he had changed and was true to us and our future. I know he has really changed and saw what he almost lost and has no desire to hurt me like that ever again.

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